One more moth has gone by. One more month filled with laughter, joy, and many milestones in your life. You are now a year and a half... wow! I sometimes wish I could stop you from growing and growing but at the same time I know that it is the way life is and I am enjoying every bit of it with you!
I´ve seen that you keep on approaching things with abandoned glee. There is too much bubbly joy to be contained within your body when you get to try something new or explore a new situation. You still adore running away from me whenever I am not looking. If you didn't run cackling at the top of your lungs the entire time, you’d probably get away, too.
You have brought so much pure happiness to my life because of your exuberant heart. You have strong opinions and do not like to be thwarted, but your default setting is happy. I plan to continue to nurture that happy as best I am able. The idea that you could keep that optimism through life is breathtaking to me. It’s something I have aspired to catching pieces of in my own life. If I can learn from you anything, it’s to hold onto this joy in encountering new situations.
I learn so much from being your mother. Every month is a new experience and I love being in the unknown, even when I’m afraid of it. I often think back to that time before you were born. It was a time when my mind was all about expectations, but I had to relax into the lack of control. It was a time when I felt most in tune with my body, yet my body was not truly my own anymore.
I hope that I can give back to you even the tiniest bit of understanding what that does a child do to a person; of what you do to me: the simultaneous miraculous and ordinary emotions you make me feel...
I love you so much and will always do so!
XOXOXOXO,
Mommy
