A loving mommy´s reflections

I've spent the last two days deep in thought thinking about how much I've learned and grown in the last year. Although it's been the absolute best year of my life, it's also been the hardest. It's been an emotional roller coaster. Anyone who tells you having a baby is easy, is lying. Because it's not. It's hard work but I wouldn't change a thing! I thought I'd share a few things that I've learned this year with you:

1. The size of your heart can indeed grow. 

I think my heart has quadrupled in size since the birth of Micaela. It just continues to get bigger and bigger as each day passes. There really are no words to describe the manner in which our baby girl is loved. She is our life and there is nothing we wouldn't do for her.

2. You get used to lack of sleep. 

Those first 3 weeks were the hardest 3 weeks of my life. Sleep deprivation at it's finest, that was me. But you get used to it. you adapt. It got much easier as Micaela started to sleep longer intervals. But, those first 3 weeks? Forget it. I was a walking zombie.

3. Some friendships get stronger and some you lose altogether.

For some friends it's been easier to accept the new, not always accessible, us. For others, not so much. We´re ok with that.

4. You fall in love with your better half all over again.

At least, I did. It's pretty moving to see the two beings you love most in the world interact with one another. Seeing them together? I just love it. She bites his fingers and mimics the noises he makes. She squeals like crazy when he says 'I'm gonna get you.' Today she even cried when he went upstairs and she couldn´t see him anymore, expecting him to come back down while she yelled "papá". It makes my heart hurt from happiness. It's amazing. Truly amazing. 

There's so much I've learned in this past year. About myself, Pablo, my family, and even my friends. There's been so much growth. I feel much more mature and responsible. We've tackled many obstacles all on our own. Pablo and I. We've followed our instincts and we've conquered our first year of parenthood.  I'm so very proud of us!